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It's my ten-year writing anniversary. Ten years since I sat down at my computer, wrote my heart out, and started pursuing this crazy dream of publication.
That's 1-0. A decade. a.k.a., A LONG, LONG TIME.
I'm
actually feeling okay about the occasion. Perhaps even a little bit proud? I
always hear that it takes most authors "ten years to become published,"
so my first contract must be just around the corner, right? ;)
In
reality, I think of it more as "ten years of not giving up." I've
earned my proverbial stripes and am prepared to keep moving on, even
though that final destination is still a big, fat question mark.
I
know, I know. This is when non-writers and illustrators would say
WHY? Why, oh why, do you continue to do this to yourself day after day,
year after year, with no end in sight? Are you nuts?!
Yes.
It takes a certain type of insanity to battle the odds and keep chasing the publishing dream. It's not for the faint of heart or sound of mind. Or for people who despise rewriting their manuscript's opening sentence at least forty six times. Consider yourself warned.
I wasn't sure how I wanted to mark this
occasion. I thought about doing a cake recipe blog post. One of those,
"Stir in ample dedication. Add a cup of tears and a dash of
bitterness. Top with lots of chocolate--you'll need it."
Instead, I
ate some celebratory s'mores cheesecake.
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| Treat yo self. |
I don't feel like
being cutesy or clever, so I'll just be honest. When I started my first
novel, The Beast of Bannock, I didn't think it would take ten years to become published. I didn't think I would go on to write several more books and still not be published. (My hopeful five-year writing anniversary post now makes me cringe. Poor, naive 2012 Kathryn!)
The journey to publication really is like climbing up a mountain. A thrilling, dangerous, dizzying Mount Everest. The adventure has been
wonderful. It's been ugly. There have been times I thought I was sooooo close to the summit only to find out I still had a long, long, looooong way to go.
Parts
of this decade-long endeavor have been better than others. Years 1-4
were full of optimism and confidence. I soaked up everything I could
and thought publication was just around the corner.
Year 5, that confidence started wavering.
Years
6-8 were rough. The rejections piled on; promising connections
didn't pan out the way I thought they would. I was bummed out and
burned out. I frequently wanted to throw in the towel. I even declared I was throwing in the towel on more than one occasion! But
something always called me back, and I kept at it despite my
protestations.
Year 9, I felt the stirrings of my early passion and a twinge of hope again.
And
now--at Year 10--I'm overall quite zen about the whole thing. Maybe I'll get
published; maybe I won't. All I can do is give it my best. Just keep
swimming and all that.
I may not be where I thought I
would be at this milestone, but I'm not doing too bad. I've got some books
under my belt and more in my head. I've learned a thing or two. I've been blessed with
so many, many wonderful writing and illustrating friends and family members who support me. (You know
who you are. You're probably reading this. I love you all and would be tumbling down the mountain if I didn't have you.)
I also know that if (when?) I get published some day, more challenges will always come my way. But I'll save that for another decade.
More than anything, this occasion has made me nostalgic. I'm not as devoted to my first novel anymore--the one about about a boy named Ellis who turns into a horse. (He also has green scars. I still think that's kind of cool.) But I'll always love it to pieces. So to celebrate this anniversary, I'll share some of my other firsts: my first writing notebook; my first rejection; my first (horrific) equine character sketches; my first stab at drawing a map of my fantasy world; and my first professional critique. (If you can read that tiny print, the agent bluntly wrote, "There isn't enough character development up front for me to care about, and root for, Ellis." She was 100% correct.)
